Segundo is rapidly losing the baby look and starting to resemble a little kid more each day. His vocabulary is increasing and he’s able to communicate exactly what he wants and for me to understand him. We are moving away from having babies or even toddlers and into having two little boys. That realization hit me recently as I was having a conversation with Segundo about the house painters across the street. He was asking me what the guys were doing and when I told them they were painting the house he asked what color and had follow up questions. He even corrected me when I mistakenly said the ladders were on the truck. “No Daddy, that’s a van not a truck” This wasn’t baby talk but and inquisitive little boy that could make sense of the world with a bit of help.
When did this happen? When did my babies turn into boys and how soon until they are men and moving on? It is cliche to say it all flies bye but it’s true. With primo starting pre-school in the fall we are already having conversations about part time jobs I would take once both boys are in school. That moment seemed to be an eternity away before but now seems like it might be tomorrow. Beautiful wrote about wishing time away and I know what she means. We are happy to see that next milestone reached but it’s one step closer to them being out of reach. I don’t want to look back and feel like I missed these special times so I try to milk them. To live in the little moments and take in the depth and width of them so I can pull them back up, when the boys have grown, and inhabit them again. I will remember the living room forts and the diaper changing songs. I will remember the scrapped knees and the bedtime tantrums and I will experience them all over again.
My babies are boys and while I miss the babies I won’t be afraid of them growing up. I will collect those moments like butterflies and pin them to the display case to be pulled out whenever I need them.