Once more into the breach

Let the routine spinOn the eve of the end of the our vacation I feel like I’m staring at a merry-go-round that’s spinning a little more quickly than I’m comfortable with and I have to jump back into the swirling vortex. It isn’t like the time off of our regular routine was restful or stress free, quite the contrary. But some how diving back into the work, school, community schedule feels daunting. I feel like some of the balls I was trying to keep in the air are no longer spinning, wait those are the plates aren’t they. The balls have rolled down the hill and into the creek that I am now up. See I can’t even get my metaphors straight enough to make sense of these feelings, how am I going to get this schedule back on track.

I think the boys feel the same way they just don’t know it yet. While I’m easing my hand into the spinning bars of the merry-go-round they are still happily playing with the slides. Soon we will fling ourselves into the mix and hold on for dear life. The transition will be rough but it’s a short week. The weekend will be here again and we can get the timing down, learning from our jarring plunge back into the great spin. Routine will be good for all of us, once we find it again, it’s just the finding that I am worrying about this eve.

It’s hard to rely on my good intentions

Good morning daddy!

I have intentions, good ones even and I am trying to follow through on them. I am not a morning person, not in the slightest but the boys get up early and they go from sleepy eyed snugglers to a full sprint in about 10 minutes. I on the other hand need at least an hour and 2 cups of coffee before I can knock the sleep out of my eyes. In an effort to find a meeting place I have started to get up earlier than the boys. By started I mean this morning I got up before the boys, so this is not some observation of how the process is going in case you were impressed. There is plenty of time to give up, but like I said, I have intentions.

Since I’m not a morning person I feel like the morning controls me and I end up reacting to it. The boys are off and running and because I’m not ready to deal I get frustrated faster and see the boy’s energy as an affront. Like their alertness is just their way of sticking it to me. So I want to be more proactive with the morning by getting up earlier and being ready for the day, ready for the boys. This morning I got up and rode my bike over to the local gym and signed up for a 7 day trial. By getting up and out of the house with an activity maybe I can speed up the waking process and even get in some much needed exercise. So that is what I started this morning, turning good intentions into a habit. I heard it takes 30 days to develop a habit so day 1 in this habit building is down and 29 to go.